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Friday, September 23, 2005
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i woke up very late today...at 1 pm i stood up and went to the bathroom to take a bath...then opened my closet and picked the first shirt i saw and the jeans that was already hanging on my closet's handle...then i ate lunch...brushed my teeth and picked up my things...then i went to my cousin's shop to check if "nemo" was ready to go...but then kuya said that they still need to change the distributor...which will cost 2500...so i went to hun's house coz i have to be there beofre 3pm coz of the color coding...so i stayed at hun's house till 4...hun was sleeping and i was just there in his room staring at my filip13's handouts coz we will have a quiz...anyway...at 4pm i texted lye and asked her if she is in school coz we have to meet up...hun was still sleeping,i didn't want to wake him up coz he was tired...so i walked in going to csb...i went straight to the caf coz lye was waiting for me there...after meeting up with lye...i went to my classroom...then ms perez arrived and the lecture started...kat was seated beside me...though we both had a copy of the handout, we didn't read it and we were not able to listen attentively to ms perez coz we were busy discussing the things that we still need for the bright lights and for the photo video workshop...so when were about to take the test...we didn't know anything coz everything was taken from the lecture...during the test we comparing our answers and we were laughing coz we even asked our other classmates for answers...hahaha...the whole class was doin that actually .....
the class was over...i went to the cubix coz i have to wait for hun till 9 coz he has a bw photo class...i was getting hungry so i went to the caf with ciege...then we went back to the cubix...after eating..i asked chabs to play the word factory coz we were getting bored of waiting...
at 7 pm hun entered the cubix and told me we can already go home...he forgot to bring a tmax film and his prof allowed him to shoot at home...so we left then went to their old house to get the refund from the landlady...then we went to my cousin's shop to check nemo...then we went home...
hun used my computer for a while and went online to get the codes that he needs for his instruct class...he saved it on my flash disk and went home...
i asked ate ria to prepare my dinner...while eating...i was watching sassy girl at channel 12...(gma kapuso) i've been watching it since i was aired on tv and i was enjoying watching it...i lke chun yang coz she was really pretty and i like her character...marvin was cute...the character suits him well...i am irritated with charina...she reminds me of someone...i will try to look for a dvd of that series so i could watch it without cuts
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- The Art of Letting Go -
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Thursday, September 22, 2005
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"To let go isn't to forget, not think about, or ignore. It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn't winning, and it isn't losing. It's not about pride, and it's not about how you appear, and it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn't leave emptiness, hurt or sadness. It's not giving in or giving up. Letting go isn't about loss, and it's not defeat. To let go is to cherish memories, but to overcome and to move on. It is having an open mind and confidence in the future. Letting go is accepting. It is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry and made you grow. It's about all that you have, all that you had and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. ! Letting go is growing up. It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and to set yourself free."
"The hardest mile I've ever walked was the one away from you."
"Yet, regardless if you love them or hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them, it matters not. Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world, they became everything to you.When you look them in their eyes, travelling into the depths of their soul, and you say a million things without the trace of sound, you know that your life is eventually consumed within the rhythmic beatings of their heart. You love them for a million reasons. No paper would do the justice. It's a thing, a feeling, only felt by you."
"I forgot about you for a while, but then I saw you again in my mind, just instantly flashed back to the time when I thought that we were happy; I know I'll never hold you like that again."
"All I ever did was LOVE you too much".
"I think letting you go was the smartest decision I ever made. Even though I loved you so much, I just couldn't deal with the pain. And, the times we spent together, holding each other, were the best times of my life. But no matter how much I wanted to keep you in my arms, I couldn't. I couldn't hold on to you, knowing that all you were going to do was hurt me. But right now, even though I still love you, I don't need you anymore. I don't need you to complete me. I just need you to comfort me when I'm sad, support me, and listen to me when I talk. So, I guess what I'm saying is, I'm glad we're over. I'm glad I've let go."
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Sunday, September 18, 2005
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my day went well...though i wasn't able to attend my eccomerce class at 8-11am...i was
really sleepy so i overslept .. then at around 11 am i woke up coz hun is gping to my house so i have to take a bath and dress up...at around 12:30 he arrived...then my brother arrived with mom...coz they went to toyota quezon ave to check out the car my mom bought...its going to be delivered next week...yey!
so we left the house with them...we dropped my mom at glorietta then hun, kuya and i went to pateros to get "nemo"...hun's toyota sprinter...finally we were able to sign the deed of sale...we were able to get the car...we immediately brought it to my cousin's auto repair shop to have the car checked...according to my kuya pen (my cousin) he stilll needs to fix the carburator...the clutch and the starter...then "nemo" will be ready to go...
hun was quite excited...and i know that he's really happy to have his own car out of his own money (though my brother lended him some money which he promised to give back...500 a week until he reaches the amount of 25k .. well the agreement was between them)...hun asked tita rita tif she can give him some money so that he could process the registration of the car so he could use it right after my cousin fixes it..
after eating my lunch at my cousin's shop...i left hun with my cousin and i walked to my lola's house...i saw baby jan...he was taller and his hair was really long and curly...when i saw his eyes got really big and i telling him that he was "panget" coz he had this big eyes...then he screamed and cried...hahahaha...then i carried him and stopped crying...then the moment he saw his face in the mirror he cried again...he was "nangingilala" my lola was laughing coz baby jan kept on crying everytime i would touch him or talk to him...
i went back to the shop coz we have to go to my house to get my car...then we went to hun's house coz he needs to change his clothes...then we went to picc the forum for the 14th international motor show...we saw a lot of mini coopers, amc hummer replicas, triumph, midget, chevorlet, chevelle, nova, beetle, karman ghia, jaguar roadster, and other modified cars and vintage cars...
  
after the car show, we went back to his house and picked up ate elaine coz we wanted to show her the car that we saw near geno's house and the other sprinter at dian st...then went back to their to eat dinner....then hun brought me home...he stayed for a while coz he was waiting for geno's text...they were supposed to play billiards but geno was out with someone so hun went home...
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Saturday, September 17, 2005
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yesterday after my filip13 class, i went to the mmx cubix to meet up with yani coz we were supposed to fix our entries for the bright lights competition...but then he had other plans so we just ate our dinner at koi then went back to the cubix coz he needs to borrow an umbrella coz it was raining hard...we saw sha sitting at the cubix...she was waiting for her ex...well we were both waiting there...so yani left...sha and i had a llttle girl talk...she was amused that hun and i are going strong with our relationship...her exact words "grabe tatlo na yung naging boyfriend ko tapos kayo pa rin ni conrad"... then i told her that we had a big trial last january til april and we were able to surpass everything...she told me that i was strong and that if ever that thing happened to her she might have commited suicide...coz she has this "suicidal thing" going on when she broke up with her 2nd boyfriend...in the middle of our conversation...hun came in so we stopped talking...and then asked him to go back to his class coz we were having a "girl talk"...hun left and we continued talking...i told sha everything...almost in full detail...and all she can say was that i was really strong that i was able to handle that situation...and good thing that conrad has changed now and we are already in good terms..i even told her that my family knew what had happened with me, conrad and the other girl...and sha was surprised that my family didnt get too involved with my decision of accepting conrad back...coz her family was really involved with her relationships and then she told me that there was this one time that her famiyl and her boyfrend's fmaily was talking about their problem...
it was kinda great talking to sha coz she understands me well and at the same time i was able to get to know her better...coz we were not really close...though we are in the same org and we were batchmates...we never had a chance to have a talk like what we had the other day...
i have to wake up really early tomorrrow...hun's quite excited and im pretty sure that he couldn't sleep tonight...we are gonna get his sprinter at pateros after our ecommerce class...which reminds me that we are not yet don with the homework we did last week...owel im just gonna do it tom...its just a simple flash site...
im talking to my bestfriend right now over ym...so i gotta go
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anyway...this is for YOU...i know you have read the enrty...pretty sure you've been telling your friends about it again...im still waiting for a reply...
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- cup or water ??? -
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Saturday, September 10, 2005
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Read & think!!
A group of working adults got together to visit their University lecturer. The Lecturer was happy to see them. Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life. The lecturer just smiled and went to the kitchen to get an assortment of cups - some porcelain, some in plastic, some in glass, some plain looking and some looked rather expensive and exquisite.
The Lecturer offered his former students the cups to get drinks for themselves. When all the students had a cup in hand with water, the Lecturer spoke: "If you noticed, all the nice looking, expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is normal that you only want the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. What all you wanted was water, not the cup, but we unconsciously went for the better cups."
"Just like in life, if Life is Water, then the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold/maintain Life, but the quality of Life doesn't change." "If we only concentrate on the cup, we won't have time to enjoy/taste the water in it."
"Ability may take you to the top, but it takes character to keep you there." -John Wooden, Basketball Coach.
* this was an email that was sent to me by my friend and i just wanted to share the message ..
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Thursday, September 08, 2005
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in school...nothing to do...waiting till shoti's done with his class...i wonder if "she" saw my entry...how will she react..or will she react...
anyway...we are goin to san pedro laguna in a while to get the new puppy...hopefully the black female pom is cute...
cant think of anything right now...im bored...grrr!!!
A Few Facts
Created by blessediva and taken 55 times on Bzoink
The Average Joe-Schmo Would Know...
What are some of your nicknames? joy,joyee,joyot,joyjoy
What's your personal style? style on???
On the Inside...
What is your most prized possession? my imac g5...hehehehe
Your first love was... next please
What personal qualities do you admire? it depends
What are your pet peeves? dogs and bears ;p
What is your most unusual obsession? blogging??? ya right!!! im a shoppaholic
What is your favorite quote/saying? life is what you make it
What something no one can tell just by looking at you? i am not snobbish!!! :D
Which would you prefer...
Super Smart ~or~ Super Model? middle
Success ~or~ love? can i have both?
Hugs ~or~kisses? i love em both!
Roses ~or~ Chocolate? i love em both!!! really!!!
A Little Bit of Random...
How accurate are your zodiac sign descriptions? i dont know
What animated character do you most identify with? anime's???
Which celebrity are you most like? kate hudson! hahahaha
How bout those politicians? i dont care
Ever wished you were younger? sometimes...i miss my HS life
Wished you were older? sometimes...when im tired of studying
Your body most resembles... coke bottle! hahaha kidding
Something you won't ever do? kill someone
Sexiest lyrics you've heard i'll make love to you song by boyz II men
Most important lesson you've learned? karma exists
What do you like most about life? everything...coz im pretty much happy now
What do you dislike most about life? the "telenovela-ish" part of my life hahaha
On a perfect day... hun's 22nd birthday
When you're bored... i blog :P
Have you ever fell down the stairs? yup a couple of steps
And Just So They Know...
People should always remember that you... always bring a smile on their face???
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Your opinion about these bands
Created by psycholoser18 and taken 52 times on Bzoink
The Used: i dont know them
Green Day: they are good
MCR: ???
The Killers: ???
Velvot Revolver: ???
Straylight Run: ???
3 Doors Down: i love the song be like that!
3 Days Grace: ???
Linkin Park: the band i love when i was in third year hs
All American Rejects: ???
Fall Out Boy: ???
AFI: ???
Metallica: hard core
Smile Empty Soul: ???
Coheed & Cambria: ???
The White Stripes: ???
Hoobastank: THE REASON!!!
Good Charlotte: good band!
Something Coorperate: ???
Social Distortion: ???
The Bravery: ???
311: ???
Brand New: ???
Crossfade: ???
Slipknot: i kinda like them
Korn: rock on!!
P.O.D: like em too
Taking Back Sunday: ???
Blink 182: yeah!
Sum 41 addicted!!
Simple Plan: good good
Snow Patrol: ???
Chevelle: ???
Earshot: ???
Foo Fighters: ok
Rancid: ???
Trust Company: ???
MXPX: ???
NOFX: ???
Rob Zombie: ???
White Zombie: ???
Thrice: ???
Tool: ???
Trapt: ???
Type O Negative: ???
ColdPlay: okok
Cradle of Filth: ???
Story of The Year: ???
Maroon 5: love their songs
Mest: ???
Misfits: ???
Motley Crue: ???
Mudvayne: ???
Mushroom Head: ???
Rage Against The Machine: ???
Switchfoot: ok
Ramones: ???
Red Hot Chili Peppers: yeah!
Relient K: ???
Kid Rock: soloista
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- pahabol -
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hindi ako nakikipag-away...gusto ko lang e-add yung mga bagay na nakalimutan ko e-mention sa previous entry ko...
minsan sinabi mo na may gera sa bahay mo...sinugod ka namin dun...siya mismo ang nagsabi na pumunta kami jan sayo para matapos na ang lahat...pagdating jan nawala na ko sa sarili ko...oo mali ako kasi hindi ko na control ang emotions ko...pero no regrets...at least nagawa ko na ipaglaban ang karapatan ko bilang GIRLFRIEND...pagkatapos nung magulong usapan...umalis kami...nagsabi ka sa mga kaibigan mo kung ano ang nangyari..ito na...
ang banat mo "...she's not pretty at all" ... LAITAN pala ang gusto mo...excuse you...pero wala kang right para manlait...iharap mo ang mukha mo sa salamin at titigan mo...tignan mo kung walang kalait-lait sa pagmumuka mo...ngayon kung wala kang nakita na mali dun ka lang pwede manglait...and please...be brave enough na manlait sa harap ko...unfair naman ata ng ikaw lang nakakalait...AKO MARAMI RIN AKO MASASABI SAYO...para naman hindi nakakahiya sayo hindi ko dito sasabihin...pag nagharap tayo siguro ulit at nasa mood ka makipag laitan...sige call ako!
pano ko kaya nalaman toh??? siguro sadyang talented ako sa paghanap ng mga gusto kong malaman...
kung sabagay...una pa lang alam ko na agad na ikaw ang dahilan...napaka give-away kasi ng mga infos...una sa mga pictures na pinaglalagay mo sa network...ilagay ba ang picture mo na nasa loob ng room na kita yung lamp na galing sa boracay na AKO MISMO ANG PUMILI knowing na para sa mom niya ibibigay yun...pangalawa...ang tshirt na suot mo na "someone who loves me went to boracay and gave me this shirt" ay para rin sa mom niya...ibang picture naman na sabi mo e galing sa hacker...MALI ka...as a designer alam ko na ang bawat tao may kanya-kanyang style...sorry kasi alam ko na yung style na ganun e alam ko na gawa ng boyfriend ko...sa araw-araw na magkasama kami...alam ko na kung pano siya gumawa ng designs...unang kita ko pa lang sa picture alam ko na agad...ito pa masaya...ang descriptions sa mga bulletin survey ay lahat tungkol sa booyfriend ko...tanga na lang ako kung hindi ko siya kilala...lahat ng gusto at ayaw niya alam ko...kaya impossible na hindi ko malaman na siya ang tinutukoy mo...pero dito buminggo...nun minsan na nag post ka ng bulletin na sabi mo na ang ex mo ay nakausap mo at nagagalit sa bago mo...sympre ang bf ko na pasaway sumagot...nagreact...tapos ikaw sumagot din...edi yun huli na!
holy week...sa wakas nasolo mo na daw ang BOYFRIEND KO kasi hindi ako makakasama kasi gusto ko ng jetplane...oo tama ayaw ko sumakay ng barko at bus papaunta sa bahay niya...bakit??? kasama ko kasi ang nanay ko na bagong opera...tanga na lang ako kung pasasakayin ko sa bus at barko yun! cge magpakasaya kayo sa panahon na yun...ginawa niyo pa nga ang calling card gamit ang LAPTOP KO...sheesh...at syempre nung umuwi kayo...sabay pa...nalaman ko rin yun dahil ang ticket niyo sa bus at barko e nasa laptop ko...pati na rin ang printed copy ng calling card na ginawa niyo...
pagkita ko sa bf ko...binggo sa cellphone...sabi mo "...mwuah" eto na...sabi niyo magkaibigan...ano ako tanga??? bobo lang ang maniniwala sa walang ka-kwenta kwentang palusot niyo! hanggang sa lumabas na ang totoo...
sige ngayon pwede ka na sumagot...hindi ito away...normal lang na usap...
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- basahin mo para sayo toh...oo sayo!!! -
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Wednesday, September 07, 2005
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kung sino ka man...alam ko lagi mo binabasa to...obvious naman kasi sagot ka din ng sagot...ngayon ako naman ang sasagot...kung dati hindi ko pinagpapan sin yung mga sinasabi mo iba na ngayon...lahat ng tao may LIMITS...kung akala mo ikaw lang ang nasasaktan...MALI KA...maraming tao sa paligid mo na naapektohan dahil sa mga sinasabi mo...kung may naawa sayo...malamang yun yung mga tao na hindi alam kung ano ang PUNO"T-DULO ng LAHAT...na ang alam lang nila ay kung ano ang sinabi mo...kunng may dapat sisihin sa mga nangyayari...isama mo SARILI mo dun...teka...bago ka magsalita...alam ko sasabihin mo hindi kita kilala...bakit nung nagsabi ka ba ng kung ano-ano sa mga tao tungkol saken...tinawag mo din ako ng kung ano-ano...pero nagsalita ba ko??? hindi...cguro hindi mo rin alam na alam ko yung mga bagay na sinabi mo...at kung pano mo hindi sinali yung mga mali na ginawa mo! kung baga sa eleksyon dagdag-bawas ka! ngayon mo sabihin na wag ka husgahan...e hindi ba ikaw ginagawa mo rin yun??? oo sige nag sorry ka sa lahat ng ginawa mo! narinig na yan ng lahat! kinumpisal mo na yan at nabigyan na din ng penance yan...pero sorry hindi ako pareho ng iba...ako yung tipo ng tao na kahit pa 100 sorry ang sabihin mo...OO lang ang sagot ko...madaling sabihin na napatawad mo pero sa loob mo kung may galit pa rin wala pa rin yun...sino ba naman ang hindi makakalimot sa mga ginagawa niyo! kahit kaninong tao natin e-kwento ang LAHAT ng nangyari...lahat sila hindi nila ako masisisi...sa una akala ko AKO yung MALI..nag-sorry ako ng maraming beses...minsan mag paparamdam ka sa text ng basta basta na lang...kunyari magtatanong ka kung ano na lagay namin...kamusta na kami...ano balita...the worst NAGBIGAY ka ng ADVICE na kunyari isa kang SANTA na hulog ng LANGIT...pero hindi pala...nung lumabas ang totoo...ikaw pala ang SANTA na SINIPA para mahulog...galit na galit ako....sa sobrang galit ko nung nakita kita nakalimutan ko na NASASAKTAN AKO....sabihan mo man ako na wala akong pinag-aralan at wala akong breeding...wala akong pake!!! sige nga baliktarin natin...palit tayo ng buhay sa oras na yun!!! malamang higit pa sa ginawa ko ung ginawa mo! nakakatawa na nakakainis kasi nung mga panahon na yun para akong tanga na walang alam sa mundo! sympre hindi pa dun natapos ang lahat...dun pa lang nag-umpisa!!! pag-alis ko sa lugar kung san kita nakita kinausap ako ng TAONG MAHAL AKO...sinabi na AKO ANG GUSTO...AKO ANG MAHAL...UMIYAK SA HARAP KO AT GUSTO NIYA NA TANGGAPIN KO DIYA ULIT...sige payag na ko...marami kaming napag-usapan...madaming mga bagay na akala ko yun na yung totoo...hindi pa rin pala....ilang araw pa lang ayan ka na naman! paulit-ulit na ganun na lang linggo-linggo...hanggang sa hindi ko na lang pinapansin ang mga pinagsasabi mo...alam ko na ngayon lahat...lahat ng nangyari sa inyo...LITERAL NA LAHAT! oo nagkita kayo ulit ng hindi ko alam...at oo siya ung nakita ng kaibigan ko sa teritoryo nya...pero cge tapos na may magagawa pa ba ako???? hindi pa rin tapos diyan...internet naman napunta...una sa mga nababasa lang...hanggang sa napunta sa mga pictures na bumulaga sa mga kaibigan ko ng makita na yung lalaki na kasama ko sa lahat ng pictures ko e may kasamang iba...siguro sadyang maswerte ako na kung ano-ano ang tulong na nagagawa ng technology sa buhay ko...kasi una sa cellphone tapos naman internet...sympre nakita ko na...unang reaction GALIT...at sympre nasaktan...pero cge palipasin...makipagusap an lang ng maayos kunyari RESPETO lang hanap ko...ok fine...pagtagal-tagal nawala din yung pictures...iba naman...journal naman ang tirahan ngayon...wala kang pakialam basta lang makasulat ka...oo part sya ng buhay mo...tama ka jan..cge nandun na ako....siya ISANG MALAKING PART NG BUHAY KO kasi KALAHATI nun PARA SA KANYA...kaya siguro may karapatan din ako na mag-comment pag alam ko na lumalabas na siyang masama sa mata ng ibang tao dahil sa pinagsusulat mo! hindi man nya nababasa yan...nasasaktan ako para sa kanya... at ngayon bilang GIRLFRIEND NYA SA LOOB NG ISANG TAON AT SIYAM NA BUWAN...nagsasalita na ko!!!!! tama na yung pinagbigyan kita ng limang buwan na hindi ko na-dedefend ang sarili ko...
sabi mo "kasi may ibang girlfriend ka na?" --- to start with hindi ako iba kasi before you naging kayo ulit AKO NA YUNG GF NIYA remember??? kaya ngayon hindi ako IBANG GF kasi hindi naman kami nag break
"....we have yet to love" --- uulitin ko lang bago maging kayo ulit...KAMI NA!!!! hindi magiging kami kung hindi ako mahal...hindi ko rin siya sasagutin nung naligaw sya kung hindi ko pa siya mahal...nung pumasok ka sa eksena...sabihin na natin oo mahal ka nga nya...nung panahon na yun...ang tanong totoo ba na mahal ka niya??? o mahal ka niya kasi nung time na yun sinasabi mong mahal mo siya????
wala akong sinasabi na wala kang karapatan na magmahal...gago ako pag sinabi ko yun...oo sige minahal mo nga sya ng sobra...hindi mo kasalanan yun...oo sige..ang kasalanan mo lang tinuloy mo yung alam mo na hindi dapat...
naawa ako sayo kasi babae din ako...naiintindihan ko na kung ako nasa lugar mo malamang masasaktan din ako...pero hindi ba alam mo naman na ganun ang sitwasyon pero hinayaan mo lang...may choice ka para gawin yung tama pero hindi mo ginawa...lahat ng mga nararamdaman mo ngayon kasalanan mo rin yan...alam ko mahirap na kalimutan yung taong mahal mo...pero tulungan mo ang sarili mo...sabhin ko man na wag mo siya isipin hindi naman pwede yun dahil impossible...pero eto na lang...tigilan mo na...tumatakbo ka nga ngayon pero alam mo kung hanggang san ka tatakbo??? o kung may hinahabol ka pa ba? magpahinga ka muna...tigil na muna...mag-isip ka...matalino ka wag mo aksayahin ang oras mo...alam ko mahirap...hindi lang naman ikaw ang na-apektohan sa mga nangyari...pare-pareho lang tayo...kahit pa msaya na kami ngayon at ok na...pagdating sa usapan or kahit ano na may kinalaman sa issue...wala na...ballik ulit sa umpisa...
impossible na matapos toh...hindi na matatapos toh...
kanina galit na galit ako...ngayon medyo hindi na...at least ngayon nalabas ko na halos lahat ng gusto ko sabihin sayo... alam ko sasagot ka...aantayin ko
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